Just the other day, I sat in the couch holding my tab,flipping its cover and thinking OMG its November so soon. Is this time has wings?
Suddenly, someone shouted out with glee saying “countdown begins”...... "Countdown begins" dropping little hint.I started thinking and didn't conformed until I checked my phone for the date then I realized, Ho!my Gosh! already Christmas season started. Where the hell was I ? is there is no time to notice it? .The answer to that is, right here, distracted by career life, being tremendously happy even if there was nothing to be happy about (Well! I think It’s cool enough), keeping my life cheerful even after showing it's worst face.
I wondered! Every year I spend huge time even before starting Christmas season, on practising carols, planning to decorate our house, buying Christmas decors for my favorite Christmas tree, hanging much more time on making Christmas crafts but this year it was terribly different. I don’t know the exact reason.
Suddenly I heard someone again cheering “countdown begins”.
I put away my thinking and asked her,
Me: Who are you? Why are you yelling like this? please don't disturb me. *Wearied*
She: Ho! Dear Vinny! stop thinking and start the season with great joy.
Me: I didn't know the reason. I was not so excited this year. Yeah! love to celebrate but.....
She: [Interrupting me] Vinny! I know you from your first day on this earth. You never be like this throughout all these years. You always wears chilled smile on your face.
Of course! I'm seeing smile on your face but it's not from your heart I think.
Me: [I wondered how she would know about me and my story] Yeah! I was so dishearten about everything. Nothing worked the way I want it to be especially when it comes to dreaming or desiring. I felt like jumping to 2016 without living the whole month of December.
She: Little cute Girl! Never think like that baby. Everything has it's own reason.
Me: Ho! My tired wearied face looking cute to you. Am I looking like little girl?
Ok! I accept you, then tell me the reason? [I asked like an angry bird]
She: Haha [laughed out loud]. Your desires not have been neglected. They have been modernising giving new path to your life. I see you from the day one, I never find you like this even for a single moment. Where is your positive attitude? where is your confidence? God gave you success in every bit of your life, where is its power? why are you setting boundaries to your smiles?
She whispered, Just stop thinking and worrying about everything. Be happy. Thankful for what you have. Always hold Hope, Faith, Thrust in your heart.
All those whisperings are from my heart. Yeah! And that she in this conversation is my heart.
And I started thinking. I felt ridiculous that I was being so feeble and I decided no matter how bad this year was to me,Trust me from that moment I started to push the negative shit into the bin and started to think positive, most of the time we keep thinking about the things we lack, and never realize about the best we have.
I decided to accept everything specially my career issue. I've had my own set of bad days all through but I do know I gained strength above all. I have been moulding myself according to God’s will.
And I remembered every word written by me in one of my blog post
"Life sometimes coaches us brilliant lessons yet we fail to heed. Every day you may woke up with some regrets weighing down on your shoulders. It’s not the size, shape, weight or quantity that counts but how well you carry them and how many times you tried to defeat it and made affords to stand strong on your feet. When you feel every trial bouncing off your ceiling, instead nursing your pain, just wink and smile at the difficulty and say "hey difficulty I definitely turn you as my achievement" and find freedom in choosing to cling, to your faith, hope and trust on our God. Just believe that He’s preparing something really beautiful for you to have. Today's struggle is definitely sign of tomorrows shine."
I have learned amazing lessons and each time I only found restoration in my faith. purposely moved myself into delightful chain of events.
Now I'm back with powerful strength and became crazy Vinny with Christmas mood. And started practising carols, planned to make my Christmas tree more elegant than previous year. Not only Christmas tree but also my attitude towards life. Accepting everything in a positive way.
Finley Vinny is back.
Haan! True! Dear sweet reader. Hope you had a blessed year. Be blessed and stay blessed. Happy Christmas season. Have huge fund of smiles.
Love,
